This blog is for the times when you need to express yourself and you have no one to turn to. For those thoughts that you can't get across to other clearly, but they eat away at you so much that you have to let it all out. Write it here. Be proud. Just know I'll listen.
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you’re like the leftovers that are stuck in the back of the fridge for so long that I forget about until a big event happens and I need the space. i never notice you but you linger on still. your smell gains potency but still i account it to other things around you. you’re my favorite meal that i refuse to rid of even though you’ve spoiled passed the point of eating. i crave you so bad so when i finally rediscover you, i seek to take just a pinch. i scrape away the mold and tell myself that the germs you’ll give me will build up my immune system. now i nibble at you because that pinch didn’t taste so bad. in the back of my mind i know the consequences that will occur, but that does not stop me from taking a bite. as i go to reach for a fork and plate to finish you off, i do one last look around to see if anyone sees me making such a terrible choice. no one is within my view so i impatiently wait for you to warm up so that i may gain all the wonderful flavors you hold. just as i go to grab you from the microwave i hear footsteps. shit. i’ve reached for you much too soon and your heat has scolded me, jolting me back into reality and causing me to judge my actions. how is it that you had so easily made me weak to you after just a moments breath of being in my perspective? i should just throw you away. …yea that’d be the smartest choice. here i go for the trash. i’m ending this once and for all. no longer will i let you have a pull on me. no longer will i succumb to your charm and seduction to my taste buds. these emotions will break just as the sweat has broken on my face. the churning in my stomach begins. can this be anxiety from losing you forever? quickly now. head for the restroom. let it all out. hold nothing in. this is the effects of doing what you shouldn’t have. bittersweet isn’t it? i’m done with you. months have passed and the bug is gone. time to start prepping for the new year. let’s reorganize that fridge now. slide the milk over to make room for this pan. what is that back there? what can it be? let me just grab hold of it.
….shit. not again.
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get the feeling that you’re not all there? Like life is just happening & you’re just going through the motions of it all?
